I dun noe wat I want
All I want now is to cry but I cant cry
I dun noe why I have the urge of crying now
I had never had this feeling for very long already
But y am I feeling like this
I swear I must not be sad but I dun noe why
As I am wrinting this I dun noe y my tears are rolling down
I am just feeling so damn bad now
I is like so difficult to describe this feeling
How I wish I could tell out
But I cant I dun have the courage to do it
But how
Outside looking happy dosent mean inside it is
But how?
I cant cry but I am already doing it while writing this post
In my 14 years of life I never had this feeling before
But now I am having this kind of feeling
I dun noe wat to do or say I cant express it out
I think writing it out on my blog is also no use
I dun one the ppl around me tho feel the same way but how
I really hate the feeling of crying but I just cant control
Wat is happening to me?
Who can tell me!!
I really need help.
But saying does not change anything for me so how.
Maybe I should quit school or maybe commit suicide
I really dun noe wat the heck is happening to me Argh… hate myself totally now la
